The Study

I remember all too well, the debate I had with myself on trying to decide whether or not I wanted to have the total pancreatectomy and islet cell autotransplantation (TPIAT) surgery. I spent many nights researching, compiling information, talking to others and even had a list of pros and cons. Pancreatitis is some of the worst pain you can have. Being in constant pain made me desperate for any relief. Nothing I had tried to mitigate the pain was working except high doses of strong pain medicine and that was only temporary. The doctors were reluctant to prescribe that and I didn’t want to take it. Treating pancreatitis is like throwing darts blindly. You never know what is going to help or how you will respond as the disease progresses. There is no one size fits all for pain relief. Patients try many different things, including diet change, yoga, mindfulness, medication’s non-opioid, and opioids. A patient can spend years trying to find anything that will help if at all. And let’s don’t forget the fight with insurance companies to get tests or treatments covered. Support or lack of from family and friends and the medical community is also a factor that can have a huge impact on the long-term outcome. I have had many tell me they have considered suicide at one point. It certainly crossed my mind.

If you have kept up with me or read my blog, you know I have said having this disease is the most demanding thing I have ever dealt with. Physically, psychologically, and financially, it is a never ending. Trade one serious problem for other chronic problems. My problems include diabetes, GI issues, malabsorption, PTSD and abdominal pain, although the pain is lower than before surgery.  My bowel perforation last April was from scar tissue of my previous pancreas surgery.   

A study was recently published by the University of Cincinnati, Long-Term Survival Outcomes after Operative Management of Chronic Pancreatitis: Two Decades of Experience. The study covers 20 years of 493 patients who have had operative intervention for chronic pancreatitis (CP). This is the first time a study has been done on long term outcome.

This is a direct quote from the study – Chronic pancreatitis (CP) is a debilitating disease process, causing refractory, chronic abdominal pain, narcotic dependence, frequent hospitalizations, pancreatic endocrine and exocrine dysfunction, and decreased quality of life. The last four words from that statement is really what it is all about. Decreased quality of life!

This link will take you to the article about the study. A link on that page will take you to the published study

Study of pancreatitis surgeries finds steady decline in survival (statnews.com)

These paragraphs from the study say a lot-

Findings from this study identify just how critical psychosocial care is for patients in the post operative period and beyond. Persistent narcotic dependence was the only factor associated with worse overall survival in the final multivariate model. While 73% of patients achieved narcotic dependence after definitive surgical therapy, the remainder continued to require narcotics. Weaning narcotics for these patients after surgery is a clinical challenge and often takes several months to achieve. These findings confirm just how important this process is in the recovery of these patients. Narcotics and psychosocial issues, including substance abuse, alcohol abuse, tobacco abuse, end-stage liver disease and suicide, are a major source of mortality and also identify an unmet need for these patients. A study from Estonia found similar issues regarding poor outcomes in this patient population and behavioral risk factors which they included continued tobacco and alcohol abuse, and alcohol-related liver disease.(25) It remains unclear how much of these deaths are preventable, but it is an area in need of targeted intervention.

This study serves as a benchmark for outcomes in patients with refractory CP requiring surgical intervention. It also identifies a major area of need in this patient population. The care for these patients must continue well after the date of surgery. These patients require coordinate care which should focus on and potentially alleviate some of the major sources of mortality including cardiovascular health, endocrine and diabetes management, as well as oncologic surveillance. Additionally psychosocial support is critical for these patients.

Conclusions: This study represents the largest study to date looking at long-term survival after definitive surgical intervention for chronic pancreatitis. 1-, 5-, and 10-year overall patient survival is 96%, 81%, 63%. Median age at time of death is 50.6 years. The most common causes of death include infections, cardiovascular disease, and diabetes-related complications. Psychosocial issues including narcotic dependence, substance abuse and suicide are a major source of mortality in this patient population.

The results of the studies do not surprise me. I have known from personal experience and meeting approximately 250 pancreatic disease patients face to face plus talking to many more online that there are many complications from this disease and treatments. I know of at least 20 people I’ve personally met who have passed away. I know of many more who have passed from the support groups online.  

The fact that 4 out of 10 will die with in 10 years is sobering. Surgery is supposed to improve your life. Not having surgery on your pancreas and what your life expectancy is would be debatable. It would be good to see a study of patients who do not have surgery intervention, and this is mentioned in the study. Every person having surgery is looking for relief and a better quality of life. It would be interesting to know if patients who continue to have problems and are subject to more things like X-ray/cat scans, anesthesia, or multiple surgeries, if that contributes to pain, cancer or heart problems? What about replacement of insulin, enzymes, iron, other vitamin deficiencies? Patients are often less active and become socially uncomfortable. Current therapies do not work well for numerous patients who are just trying to have a better quality of life.

In the several speeches I have given at conferences, I have mentioned almost every item in this study. I’m glad a study was done that affirmed what deficiencies there are treating CP. As I have said before, it isn’t about me, it is about us, the pancreas community. What I have learned, written about and spoke about is what many I have talked to have mentioned to me. I’m glad there are numbers to support the problems. There are some pancreas centers who have not practiced good follow up care, patient surveys or psychological care. Some patients have been left in limbo after surgery, feeling left out in the cold. Now, how the medical community decides to manage this will decide the fate of many post-surgical pancreas patients.

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

For about 9 years now I have dealt with pain and fighting the unknown. What started out as a physically and mentally demanding illness has now turned into several chronic conditions. The fight is constant and unrelenting. It is more physically and mentally demanding as ever. I write as a way to express myself and what I feel. It is one of my few outlets to this hellish roller coaster I’m on. I’m constantly reading and trying to figure out what would help physically and mentally.

This poem is another to many I’ve written or blogs I’ve posted. If you have known me very long you may have read some of my posts about my battle with pancreatitis and other things that have happened during that battle. One I wrote over 6 years ago was called The CP Roller Coaster. Although my illness and situation has changed some, it still holds extremely truthful today.

I’m posting my new poem and the CP Roller Coaster blog again to show, while things change, they also stay the same.  From the song Circumstances by Rush.

All the same we take our chances
Laughed at by time
Tricked by circumstances
Plus ca change
Plus c’est la meme chose
The more that things change
The more they stay the same

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

When the heart has just had too much

When your broken body is out of touch

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

When your mind has become so numb

When your heart has shriveled up like a plum

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

When the soul can’t take any more hurt

When the tears stop dripping on my shirt

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

Hopes and dreams are like tears in the desert heat

They dry up fast, evaporation is complete

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

Years of pain and emotion all bottled up

To much of being called a fuck-up

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

When you’ve lost almost everything and few care

My tank is on empty, no more tears to spare

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

Will the pain and sorrow push me over the edge?

No more happiness, no more joy, standing on the ledge

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

Fighting a losing battle the past few years

Losing the game, there are no more cheers

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

After losing my health, my job, my wife

Convince me it was God‘s plan that fucked up my life!

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

When things in life don’t matter anymore

All your dreams are washed away from the shore

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

The price for taking the blame for too long

The tears are gone, time for the last song?

What happens when the tears stop flowing?

I have run out of tears, the well has run dry

I have nothing left to give, is it time to say bye bye?

The CP Roller Coaster by Dan Spracklen                             July 2014

I’m on a roller coaster that never stops. I love roller coasters and this normally wouldn’t be much of a problem. The anticipation during that first big climb and then the speed and excitement of a 80 degree drop or looping a 360. Next is a turn that pushes you into the seat with a few G’s holding your hands in the air all the time. The 4 minutes of thrill that make you get in line and do it again.

But we are at the amusement park CP, but the park is anything but amusing.

And the roller coaster I’m on is no fun at all.

What do I mean by this? Well I have CP, Chronic Pancreatitis. My roller coaster is pain. I showed up at the amusement park CP and got on the roller coaster about 2 years ago. I didn’t realize it would be a permanent ride that I would beg to get off of. But I’m in the seat and the safety restraints won’t loosen up. I’m stuck with no way out.

The pain is unrelenting and never stops. So where does the roller coaster come in? Just like a roller coaster it builds going up that first big hill. You think it is easing up just as the first loop hits followed by a quick twist. And just like a roller coaster you want to scream out, not in joy but in agony and pain.

My life has become a roller coaster of OK days and bad days. I really don’t have what I call “good” days. Good days are when you have no pain and can enjoy life to its fullest. I don’t have that anymore. Instead I hope for a few hours so that I can get my daily things done before that first big hill of pain hits. Some days are like the new roller coasters, smooth just gliding along. But most are like the old wooden roller coasters that jerk, bounce and rough you up. There is no holding your hands up here, you just hang on and hope it gets better.

My emotions are like riding a roller coaster in the dark. You never can see what is ahead and you just never know when the bottom is going to drop out. It will spin you around and flip you over.

My support is like a roller coaster, some days they are very sympathetic and other days they are not. They do not understand, they are not on the roller coaster.

My sleep is like a roller coaster getting a couple hours here and a couple hours there. It is hard to sleep on a roller coaster.

Going to the ER and Dr. is like a roller coaster. Do they really care and understand what you are saying to them? Will they treat you like a drug seeking alcoholic or like a human being?

So you see going to the CP amusement park and riding the CP roller coaster, is no fun at all.

Thanks to Philip Montelone for the illustration.